He fuzzies up my mind

I have the feeling that knowing my dad disallows me from engaging in life. I'm in a tight spot where he set my priorities, but as I watched him interact with life, I noticed both how people did not uniformly like my dad and how embarrassed I was to agree more with the people who didn't like/agree with him. So, I'm left in a spot where he wants to be in my life, but the more I think about him, the more I disassociate with my own life. Talking to him and knowing him fuzzies up my mind.

I think my wife likes me for who I am but I don't like interacting with the world at large because I see my dad in my actions.

Annoying things I remember from him

-He called one of the neighbor families "social retards".
-He asked me if I was gay. He was really scared that I might be.
-I was nervous as I was leaving the house before a prom dance. He brought put the camera, I asked him to please not take pictures right now. Of course he kept taking pictures as I backed out of the driveway.
-I asked him an akward personal question about the subject of sex and he gave me a joke answer.